gettin real tired of my own bullshit

VIA seaasick
ORIGINALLY reinapepiada

Actually you know what, I haven’t ruined everything, none of this is my fault and I will not let you bring me down and ruin my life anymore.
Yes I am going to miss you like hell for ages and I’m going to be lonely as fuck but I have neglected myself for far too long and it needs to stop!

I’ve ruined everything and I’m sorry

1. When you cut yourself, clean and bandage it.

2. Do not start smoking cigarettes because the boy who broke your heart does.

3. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

4. Cutting calories doesn’t do anything but make you unhappy.

5. If the number on the scale rises, throw it out.

6. The first girl you ever “date” is going to call the police on you even though she lives three thousand miles away, because you’re going to tell her that you’re not in a good mental state shortly after you’ve “broken up”.

7. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

8. Break up with the boy who says, “You had a sexy phase!” when you tell him that you’ve dated a girl before.

9. Dating your friends is not always the best idea, but you can still be friends after you’ve broken up with her.

10. Your mother will try to become your best friend because you’re leaving for college soon. Let her.

11. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

12. Your closest friend will stop talking to you when you leave for college.

13. It’s okay to cry.

14. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

15. When you cut yourself again, clean and bandage it. Do not be ashamed.

16. Your anxiety is going to try and control your entire life. Tell it to shut the hell up, because you’re trying to live and that task is hard enough as it is.

17. The past has a funny way of coming back in the form of you developing a crush on another friend.

18. Try not to hate yourself for breaking up with your boyfriend.

19. If you’re still smoking, apologize silently to your mother.

20. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

One day, whether you
are 14,
or 65

you will stumble upon
someone who will start
a fire in you that cannot die.

However, the saddest,
most awful truth
you will ever come to find––

is they are not always
with whom we spend our lives.
- Beau Taplin, "The Awful Truth" {Hunting Season – 28 copies left}  (via moonsads)

(Source: afadthatlastsforever)

What is the point of any of this if at the end of the day you don’t love me?


This has been probably the worst week of my life

(Source: oh-good-life)

That’s what really scares me.

Falling in love is easy. Having sex is easier. But bumping into someone that can spark your soul - that shit is rare.

You could fuck four, five, all the people in a god damned room and you’d only feel a connection with one. Or none at all.

And what sucks is despite the undeniable real magnetic pull between the two of you, more often than not, you don’t end up together.

I’m afraid I won’t meet anyone else I can connect with.

I’m scared it’ll be just you.

- Sade Andria Zabala (surfandwrite) | Connection  (via 09994)

(Source: surfandwrite)

If blood was the color of missing you,
I’d have it all over my hands.
I’ve done nothing all weekend long
but think of ways to love you.
My thoughts are a constant wind
and constant water, lapping you.
My blood is the color of missing you.
- (via koreyan)

(Source: youreyesblazeout)

VIA otterly
ORIGINALLY youreyesblazeout

Reading old text messages was a bad idea



the best and most accurate thing

This literally NEVER gets old.

(Source: oyesiam1)

I used to have a card from him that said something along the lines of ‘just a note to say I love you’ but I think I threw it out earlier this year, it was the only written evidence I had that he loved me at one point.



hey friend

ur gonna be okay

go put some PJ’s in the dryer, take a long shower, put on ur warm jammies, and crawl into bed with some tea and a good book

because you are gonna be okay

thanks friend